I realize this may be too soon as we are still getting to know each other. However, every part of me thinks we may have entered into a relationship that will last through out the years; triumphing through the good times and the bad times. I'm aware how irrational I tend to be and I'm not going to lie to you and tell you I haven't felt this way in the past, because I have. Gym, this time it's for real! I want to give you everything I have. I want to be honest with you and my self about what I need from this relationship as well as what I'm willing to give. In the past, this relationship was a bit of a novelty for me; always an exciting new venture that quickly faded into the sidelines of daily life. This time it's different. I've felt the loneliness when we are apart. Not seeing you turned me into an incredibly flabby, insecure women. I've matured since our first experience with each other. I'm adult enough to admit I've made mistakes in the past and giving you my attention and respect for what you do for me now brings me joy and makes me appreciate who I am. I know I'm not the only one Gym. I know about Becky and the countless others, and I know Becky sees you every morning like clock work. I'm ok with this as I know we are on good terms with the fact that I may not be there every morning at the same time to see you but I give you the element of surprise. You appreciate that I see you whenever I have the time, no matter what time of day it is. I want you to know, I'm OK with sharing you. I just hope you give back to us as much as we give to you...Gym, I don't want to put added pressure on you and scare you away but if I don't share this wonderful news with you, it would make our relationship seem shallow and meaningless. This morning as I was getting ready for work, and of course thinking about your dedication to me, I decided to take a chance and put on the jeans I bought the week before we first met. Remember those? It's been almost a year! I told you about them on our first date. I mentioned how I purchased them hoping our relationship would get me into them. They were my symbol of motivation for making this relationship successful. I know I failed the first couple times around but to quote a great Yogi "It's never too late to start again". I took the Yogi's advice and GUESS WHAT, those jeans fit! I cheated a few months ago and wore then out to an event. However, the pains and struggle to get them on, let alone breath all night was not worth having to hide the muffin top under the spanx ( please note: nothing against spanx, they make the world a better place.) If there is no other solid proof that we really have something here, this is it. Not only did they slip on but they are comfortable, wear all day, breath and eat what you want comfortable! I'm not going to exaggerate the weight loss or pretend I could prance around in these jeans with a bikini top just yet as I've been here before and the muffin is still baking - but this is proof of hope and success on the horizon. Thank you Gym. Thank you for giving me another chance! Thank you for never judging me and for always accepting me back into your life. I look forward to our future together! I can't wait till you see me in those daisy dukes I bought this summer... for next summer.
All my love, sweat and tears,
Tana
