Like any women before me who has struggled with their weight, I 've had many excuses. But the honest truth is... It's all my parents fault!
Ok. So maybe it started off as my parents fault , or their parents fault. Bad genetics, lazy upbringings. I'm adult enough to admit that once I started making my own mistakes I could have taken my ass to the gym. Instead I just complained about my weight, drank many calories throughout my 20's, ate through the heart aches and tried every yo yo diet I could find. My favorite being The Atkins Diet. No carbs. I lived in LA, everyone was doing it, so why couldn't I! Meats, cheese and water and I lost 15lbs in a few short weeks - I remember reading somewhere that carrots were carbs; that's when I knew I hit rock bottom.
I'm not even sure if I believe in blogs. However, trying to embrace the technologies available to me, I/we thought starting a blog with someone of like mind might be a positive step in my quest for greatness. Greatness meaning someday I shall look myself in the mirror naked and love what I see. The irony is that I'm not sure if I've ever looked at myself in the mirror and liked what I saw. I just know the last time I really liked my body was... well, never. I am a walking cliche of diet bloggers. I've struggled with my confidence and my weight my whole life. The only time I really thought I liked my body was after a year of an eating disorder in high school in which I still looked in the mirror and thought, even at 5'10" and a size 10, that I was morbidly obese. It wasn't until my late 20's when looking back at photo's that I realized how skued my body image was and how great I was at self loathing. I have many goals with starting this blog. I don't want to be a role model for diets or nutrition. I just want to be accountable to myself and Becky to get my butt to the gym 4 - 5 times a week. I want to feel healthy and fit. I don't want to track my weight every week but just come to a size that suites me. I've embraced that I'm a big girl. I'll never shop in the petite section and I'll never be able to wear 6" heels without feeling like a giant. I think a size 8 will suite my body, mind and fashion sense. Most importantly is the bikini I'm going to wear on January 1st , 2011.Note, I did not say TANkini. I'm talking strings, triangles and patches that cover my girly parts. Ideally, I want what every girl wants because nothing taste as good as skinny feels!
August 2010. Sweat it all out!
